I never in a million years thought I would be "that person" that was blogging, especially not blogging about my Crohn's/Colitis. When I was diagnosed in 2008 with my disease I was embarrassed and ashamed. I didn't want a single soul to know about my disease. Not my Mom, Dad, brother, sisters, NOBODY!
In the beginning I had so much rage built up inside me that I took it out on the people I love the most....my family. I was in a state of denial and shock the first year of having this life changing disease. I kept telling myself that it would go away, that this is just a mistake and my life would soon go back to normal. Well after a few months of waiting to wake up from this horrible nightmare, I never did. I finally realized that this is now my life and I needed to "buck up" as my Dad would say and do what needs to be done to carry on with my life, even if it meant I had to carry this disease along with me.
With this being my very first blog I'm not sure how this all works. I was inspired late last night by another blogger with Crohn's. I thought to myself..."if she can blog about her disease and life, why can't I?" While I was reading other people's blogs I realized that they could vent all of their frustrations and concerns by simply blogging. Then it clicked, why can't I do it too. The embarrassment from my disease and the symptoms that come along with it are the main reason I've been so hesitant over the years but I really don't care anymore. I realized I needed a way to vent, to let out all of my frustrations out freely that have built up over the years. If reading someone else's blog about having Crohn's helped me realize I could do the same and blog about my experience, I want to inspire others to do the same. Even if I help or inspire one person to feel comfortable talking freely about their disease like I now am, I will be happy.
I didn't know how well I'd be at this blogging thing but I could care less. If you see a misspelling or grammar error you can let me know but chances are I won't care. This feels good already, my first blog and it feels right. Here's hoping to one day finding a cure because no one deserves to live with a disease like this...no one. Hopefully this blogging thing helps me and you. It's been real people, but I'm out.